So yesterday I got home from school around 11:00, and wasn't feeling to great, so I climbed into bed. After only 2 or 3 interruptions I woke up around 6p and realized I had a massive fever. So I took a hot shower, ate a little bit, watched a movie, and then went back to bed, and didn't wake up this morning until about 10a. I feel much better now, but we shall see how I'm doing later tonight. I missed all my classes today. Which is lame, but I suppose it's better to miss one day and get well, than to drag myself in, and then prolong the sickness for a week and then possibly miss more if I were to get worse. So here's hoping I'm done with that crud.
I have applied (a while ago) to a job, and have had 2 interviews, so I am waiting with baited breath for them to call me back and see when I can start. I really really really hope I get the job.
And I'll be seeing the girl [from the previous post] on thursday. I can't wait. Here's hoping I'm well by then.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
Been a while, so here's an update.
I knew this would happen, I'm really bad about blogging in a consistent manner. I told myself to remember to do it. But I didn't. I'm not 100% certain what caused the break down of mental process that would normally have kept me on track. I think it was WoW (world of warcraft for you uninitiated few). I hate that game. Mainly because I enjoy it so much. Ok, wait, lets be honest, I don't really hate or enjoy it all that much. It's just comfortable to keep playing it, and easier to sit down and log in than it is to get up and go find something to do that's as mind numbingly easy to do. It's too easy to get sucked into, and that's the core of the problem. Let me see if I can explain.
So, as a "poor starving student", entertainment is at a premium in my life. By that I mean that I don't have much of it, and what I do have is usually very expensive, even if it's cheap, that's expensive. Free is pretty much the only affordable thing I can really get away with. So wow is kind of a godsend in a way. Where going to see a movie in the theater is about $15, eating out is about $15 bucks, and going to a bar and ordering only 2 or 3 drinks is $15+, you end up spending a lot of money if you do it more than once a month. Let alone weekly or daily. So when wow costs only $15 for an entire month, you understand where this can be a big selling point. Now, take that comparatively very low cost for an entire moth of entertainment, any time you feel like it, and combine it with a tendency to hermit myself away and a further tendency to become rather engrossed in the game; and then add all that to the game being the sort of setup where you feel obligated, no.... you feel it's necessary to get on and play it on a daily basis for fear of letting down your online friends and or missing out on something, including missing an event and "falling behind the curve", and you have your self a recipe for social disaster. And by that I mean, never getting up from your desk and living in what some people might call "real life". I won't get into the argument some people might make about wow and other virtual worlds being just as real. That will have to be a topic for another blog on another day.
So, anyway, point is, I quit playing wow. Again. Moving on.
I met a girl. I like her. A lot. And that's the understatement of the month, and possibly of the year. Or longer. Like most good things in life, this beast fights back. The situation, not the girl, she's not a beast. It's the kind of beast of a situation that you desperately hope it would work out well, and in your favor, and you really wish the beast would come along easily and quietly, but of course, it won't. It has to be ... complicated.
She likes me just as much as I like her, or so she tells me. She confesses that she is torn between pursuing the possibility of a fairy-tale romance and life with me, or sticking it out with her boyfriend of 2 years and much history. She and I hit it off extremely well, so well in fact that it was a little unsettling. It was the kind of set up that you see in the movies or read in the not-so-trashy romance novels that you groan at and say "that never happens". All kinds of sparks, and rainbows, and macaroni and glitter flying every which way. We talked for days straight when we met, literally, we only really paused for sleep. Somewhere in the middle of those days she let me know she has a boyfriend, which I took in stride, but it didn't seem to phase either of us, she kept talking to me, and we couldn't seem to get enough of each other. And we haven't even kissed yet, let alone anything else.
After our opening salvo of four days of not getting enough of each other, a little less than a week later to be precise, we saw each other again and had an amazing day walking around Seattle.. And then we saw each other again 1 week later and had such a good time we lost track of time. Not that that is so unusual, but it was a very strict time limit because she needed to pick her boyfriend up from work, so it was rather crucial, yet we managed to miss the time marker, and we had to part ways more abruptly that planned. Which was hard because parting is very hard for us to do in the first place, so having to rush it was really lame.
At the risk of turning this update into an unreasonably sappy gush of emotions, I feel the need to let everyone (or, more accurately, no one - based on my current popularity) know that this is one of those odd times when you know that someone is very special, and you don't want to let them go, no matter what. You know deep down that this is different, and this time it's worth it to break some rules, burn some bridges and cause some havoc because taking no for an answer is not an option this time. I'm in this to win it, even if I have to shoot myself in the foot to do it, because she's worth it. Very very worth it. NRI is in full swing. look out.
I think I need to go find a quote by someone who is much better with words than me. Something that expresses the idea that I finally found my soul mate, and I want to win her heart, body, mind, and soul, and I'm willing to do whatever it takes to get it done; because I don't want us to miss our chance at being truly happy. And despite the fact that I'm normally a really reasonable guy that would never do this sort of thing, I don't really care if her current boyfriend gets hurt in the process. I kinda feel bad for that, but it's a chance I'm going to have to take.
So, as a "poor starving student", entertainment is at a premium in my life. By that I mean that I don't have much of it, and what I do have is usually very expensive, even if it's cheap, that's expensive. Free is pretty much the only affordable thing I can really get away with. So wow is kind of a godsend in a way. Where going to see a movie in the theater is about $15, eating out is about $15 bucks, and going to a bar and ordering only 2 or 3 drinks is $15+, you end up spending a lot of money if you do it more than once a month. Let alone weekly or daily. So when wow costs only $15 for an entire month, you understand where this can be a big selling point. Now, take that comparatively very low cost for an entire moth of entertainment, any time you feel like it, and combine it with a tendency to hermit myself away and a further tendency to become rather engrossed in the game; and then add all that to the game being the sort of setup where you feel obligated, no.... you feel it's necessary to get on and play it on a daily basis for fear of letting down your online friends and or missing out on something, including missing an event and "falling behind the curve", and you have your self a recipe for social disaster. And by that I mean, never getting up from your desk and living in what some people might call "real life". I won't get into the argument some people might make about wow and other virtual worlds being just as real. That will have to be a topic for another blog on another day.
So, anyway, point is, I quit playing wow. Again. Moving on.
I met a girl. I like her. A lot. And that's the understatement of the month, and possibly of the year. Or longer. Like most good things in life, this beast fights back. The situation, not the girl, she's not a beast. It's the kind of beast of a situation that you desperately hope it would work out well, and in your favor, and you really wish the beast would come along easily and quietly, but of course, it won't. It has to be ... complicated.
She likes me just as much as I like her, or so she tells me. She confesses that she is torn between pursuing the possibility of a fairy-tale romance and life with me, or sticking it out with her boyfriend of 2 years and much history. She and I hit it off extremely well, so well in fact that it was a little unsettling. It was the kind of set up that you see in the movies or read in the not-so-trashy romance novels that you groan at and say "that never happens". All kinds of sparks, and rainbows, and macaroni and glitter flying every which way. We talked for days straight when we met, literally, we only really paused for sleep. Somewhere in the middle of those days she let me know she has a boyfriend, which I took in stride, but it didn't seem to phase either of us, she kept talking to me, and we couldn't seem to get enough of each other. And we haven't even kissed yet, let alone anything else.
After our opening salvo of four days of not getting enough of each other, a little less than a week later to be precise, we saw each other again and had an amazing day walking around Seattle.. And then we saw each other again 1 week later and had such a good time we lost track of time. Not that that is so unusual, but it was a very strict time limit because she needed to pick her boyfriend up from work, so it was rather crucial, yet we managed to miss the time marker, and we had to part ways more abruptly that planned. Which was hard because parting is very hard for us to do in the first place, so having to rush it was really lame.
At the risk of turning this update into an unreasonably sappy gush of emotions, I feel the need to let everyone (or, more accurately, no one - based on my current popularity) know that this is one of those odd times when you know that someone is very special, and you don't want to let them go, no matter what. You know deep down that this is different, and this time it's worth it to break some rules, burn some bridges and cause some havoc because taking no for an answer is not an option this time. I'm in this to win it, even if I have to shoot myself in the foot to do it, because she's worth it. Very very worth it. NRI is in full swing. look out.
I think I need to go find a quote by someone who is much better with words than me. Something that expresses the idea that I finally found my soul mate, and I want to win her heart, body, mind, and soul, and I'm willing to do whatever it takes to get it done; because I don't want us to miss our chance at being truly happy. And despite the fact that I'm normally a really reasonable guy that would never do this sort of thing, I don't really care if her current boyfriend gets hurt in the process. I kinda feel bad for that, but it's a chance I'm going to have to take.
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